Well today sucked. I hate myself. I fucking binged again and ended up gaining 5 lbs since Sunday. Then again I weighed myself right after I ate, so minus 2-3 lbs (drinking 20 oz bottle of water, eating macaroni, tuna salad, chips, salad and an apple throughout the day), puts me at 113.6. K that’s a better lookout. Still, I really do need to stop binging.

Well today sucked.

I hate myself. I fucking binged again and ended up gaining 5 lbs since Sunday. Then again I weighed myself right after I ate, so minus 2-3 lbs (drinking 20 oz bottle of water, eating macaroni, tuna salad, chips, salad and an apple throughout the day), puts me at 113.6. K that’s a better lookout. Still, I really do need to stop binging.

I wonder what it feels like to be skinny, and thin, and wake up in the morning in nothing but a T shirt, undies, messy hair, that ‘just woke up look’ and still have someone think I’m sexy, to have guys look at me, to have guys want to be my boyfriend, to have girls be jealous of my body, to feel my hipbones and collarbones, to feel confident in a bikini, to sit down and not feel fat everywhere, to not rub out the thighs in my jeans, to need a smaller size in the store, I wonder what it’s like to look in the mirror and like what I see, and not want to break the mirror, pretty much, I just want to be beautiful, Jesus, I could go on forever… (Source: cuddle-weather, via shelbymayyslife)

I wonder what it feels like to be skinny, and thin, and wake up in the morning in nothing but a T shirt, undies, messy hair, that ‘just woke up look’ and still have someone think I’m sexy, to have guys look at me, to have guys want to be my boyfriend, to have girls be jealous of my body, to feel my hipbones and collarbones, to feel confident in a bikini, to sit down and not feel fat everywhere, to not rub out the thighs in my jeans, to need a smaller size in the store, I wonder what it’s like to look in the mirror and like what I see, and not want to break the mirror, pretty much, I just want to be beautiful, Jesus, I could go on forever…

(Source: cuddle-weather, via shelbymayyslife)

skinnypsychopath: do it to be adorable, not abominable. 
If you love your Dad reblog this. If not he dies in 13 days. shelbymayyslife: walktothebeatsosuddenly: alwayschangemymind: irishtableniall: I hate that i’ve to reblog this. sorry followers :-// i luv u daddy :(<3 PUTOS. wow this shit is not okay and totally ridiculous but in my current circumstances the stupid bit of me needs to reblog it Daddy. Its stupid i know, but my dad is a fire fighter and anything could happen, i don’t want to risk it. I love him to much. Well my dad is already deceased so this post is irrelevant to me. I hate these things. Reblog anyways because i still do love him.

If you love your Dad reblog this. If not he dies in 13 days.

shelbymayyslife:

walktothebeatsosuddenly:

alwayschangemymind:

irishtableniall:

I hate that i’ve to reblog this. sorry followers :-//

i luv u daddy :(<3

PUTOS.

wow this shit is not okay and totally ridiculous but in my current circumstances the stupid bit of me needs to reblog it

Daddy.

Its stupid i know, but my dad is a fire fighter and anything could happen, i don’t want to risk it. I love him to much.

Well my dad is already deceased so this post is irrelevant to me. I hate these things. Reblog anyways because i still do love him.
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